i was looking forward to hearing back from my university i applied for my second year to see how they liked my portfolio, and this work i sent was the best i ever done, work which i havnt ever submitted work beyond what i thought i was capable at. i did recorded delivery thinking this was 100% safe as its insured and id get 400 pounds if it went missing/. but i didnt want the money that i insured it from i jsut wanted it to be safly delivered, any hows back to my story lol, i kept emailing the uni why i havnt gotten a response, then they told me they didnt have my work and i couldnt belive it as i told them i did recorded delivery it must b there, so they checked and couldnt find it!!, and i felt holloy as in like i felt empty how could my work possibly go missing i felt like apsalutle shit i felt worthless usless i dont even want to remmber ^^, but i felt it and i was devestated my work got stolen, then i went to the postal servaces and tryed everything i could i was there evry day for a week trying something new asking something new, that portfolio was more then work to me its my future its my chance i cant explain how hard i worked to create that portfolio i cant even show you what was in it but its gone now and they told me i can only get hat i insured for it and my work is probably getting bought of in a acution or something. i dont want money i want the hours days months of dedication of work i did. yes i can restart all over again and thats what i have to do im taking a gap year to recreate work for my second year its utter bullswhit but thats how i have to face it

lol i dont kno why i wrote this probably to help me come to terms but i just keep thinking deep in me it will turn up but i kno its not going to at the same time >.<, i just totally ignore it and ive been trying to read books none stop escaping from reality and the implications they have on me. :S i just hope things get easier
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My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body.
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how'd it go with Glasgow? I just got my place at Norwich arts school, can't wait to start now
Are you still at Reading? The performance module seems ummm interesting...improvisation workshops next week, hmm, wonder how much work they're actually going to involve, or rather will anyone actually turn up =/ its becoming a bit of a rarity that we actually get a full class even on a good day! lol
Roll on September hey...
I don't blame you tbh, I'd rather not go back at all now that I've got a place somewhere else
How's your photography project coming along? The darkroom stuff is so cool, you'll love it!
hey i heard you droped out of the course?
yeah I'm dropping out, not just yet tho! I'm staying til the end of the year and theeeen leaving, gonna be transferring to specialist art school back home *fingers crossed* I'll find out by the end of the month whether I've got in again or not >.<
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much appreciated
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And we'll sing it back to you.
We could sing our own
But what would it be without you...
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